recent pages


the recent pages of this year have done a work in me. To live a better story, be a willing/intentional instrument of change, to remember eternal perspective, of what a maturing Christian looks like, remember my need for grace and the gospel everyday,  and truth...

"A Million Miles in a Thousand Years" by Donald Miller

As Donald Miller was approached about making his book "Blue Like Jazz" into a film, he learned and processed what makes a good story to be made into film and seeing that played into his reality; he saw he was not living a very good story and desired to live out a better story. 
Knowing the elements that made a story meaningful [are] the same that [make] a life meaningful.

This was such a great refreshing look on the stories we are living. Reminding me to process what truly makes a life a good story and am I living that? Am I giving of myself?
If I have a hope, it's that God sat over the dark nothing and wrote you and me, specifically, into the story and put us in with the sunset and the rainstorm as though to say, 'Enjoy your place in my story. The beauty of it means you matter and you can create within it even as I have created you. 
We were designed to live through something rather than to attain something and the thing we were meant to live through was designed to change us. 
People love to have lived a great story, but few people like the work it takes to make it happen. But joy costs pain.   
The stuff I spent money on indicated the stories I was living...stuff I spent money on was, in many ways, the sum of my ambitions...the ambitions we have will become the stories we live.  
Misery, though seeming ridiculous, indicates life itself has the potential of meaning, therefore pain itself must also have meaning. 
A good storyteller doesn't just tell a better story, he invites other people into the story with him, giving them a better story. 
What do I want to be known for? Christ's love and grace. Refreshment. Life giving. Eternal perspective. Approachable. Giving.  Joy. Intentional.  Others minded. Authentic. Teachable. Trustworthy. 
I was a tree in a story about a forest and it's arrogant of me to believe anything differently...the story of the forest is greater than the story of the tree. 

"Instruments in the Redeemer's Hands" by Paul David Tripp

We are all people in need of change. We are all in process. In that process we get to join, encourage, push, and walk alongside those also in process. 
Suffering belongs to the Lord. It is an instrument of his purpose in us and for others. The way we suffer must put Christ on center stage. The Redeemer own our disappoint, fear, rejection, aloneness, etc. It all belongs to Him for His purpose. 

The purpose of our sanctification, making us more like Christ and the purpose to draw people out of darkness to point them to Christ, the hope of glory!

There's purposeful suffering to experience God's comfort with the ability to comfort others to offer a community of hope.  
2 Corinthians 1:3-5

Love - Know - Speak - Do

LOVE
Enter the person's world
Incarnate the love of Christ
Identify with Suffering
Accept with Agenda - God's grace is always grace leading to change. 

KNOW
Knowing a person Biblically
The Situation - What is going on?
The Responses - What the person does in response to what is going on?
The Thoughts - What does this person think about what is going on?
The Motives - What does the person want out of, or in the midst of what's going on? 

SPEAK
Rebuke is the word the Bible uses for bringing truth to where change is needed. 
We all need loving, honest rebuke because of:
the deceitfulness of sin
wrong and unbiblical thinking
emotional thinking
view of life tends to be shaped by personal experience

In the confrontation process, first filter through whose agenda drives your confrontation.
Confrontation process:
Consideration - what does this person need to see that they do not see? 
Confession - if people have looked at themselves in the mirror of scripture, they should have identified sins of heart and behavior that need to be confessed.
Commitment - the first step of the "put on" phase
Change - focuses on the how. How should these new commitments be applied to daily living?

DO
We do want people to see, know, and understand, but we also want them to apply that insight to their daily life...Here we teach people to be dissatisfied with the gap between their confessional and functional theology. 


"Heaven" by Randy Alcorn

Understanding Heaven doesn't just tell us what to do, but why. What God tells us about our future lives enables us to interpret our past and serve him in our present. 
We are pilgrims in this life, not because our home will never be on Earth, but because our eternal home is not currently on Earth. It was and it will be, but it's not now.  


Perspective is life changing. It changes the way you look at life, at everyday, at the people you are surrounded by,  at the situations and circumstances of life you have no control over, at the unfulfilled longings of our hearts. Eternal perspective is something I so desire to always walk in and regularly talk about and want to encourage others in. 

I had put off reading, tackling, this book for awhile because it was intimidating in my mind. How can I grasp heaven and eternity from a book. This book did wonders as God has been growing in me the last several years a greater eternal perspective and greater longing for what I was made for. I'm not going to spend the amount of time here on this book as I really would like because there is sooooo much I want to chew on and share and process here with you but I think i'll write later a post just about eternal perspective and will probably use this book a lot there. 
God is the source of all joy - all other joys are secondary and derivative...God designed us to need each other. What we gain from each other is more of God because we're created in His image and are a conduit for his self-revelation. 
Desire is a signpost pointing to Heaven...Every longing for romance is a longing for the ultimate romance with Christ. Every desire for intimacy is a desire for Christ. Every thirst for beauty is a thirst for Christ. Every taste of joy is but a foretaste of a greater and more vibrant joy than can be found on Earth as it is now.  Our desires simply correspond to God's intentions, because he implanted his intentions into us in the form of our desires. 
I know our instincts tell us that this fallen world isn't our home - we were made for someplace better.
Not only will death separate us from Christ -  it will actually usher us into his presence. Then, at the final resurrection, Christ will demonstrate his omnipotence by turning death on its head, making forever alive what appeared forever buried...If you believe this, you won't cling desperately to this life. You'll stretch out your arms in anticipation of the greater life to come. 
In order to get a picture of Heaven - which will one day be centered on the New Earth - you don't need to look up at the clouds; you simply need to look around you and imagine what all this would be like without sin and death and suffering and corruption.  
Following Christ is not a call to abstain from gratification but to delay gratification. It's finding our joy in Christ rather than seeking joy in the things of this world. Heaven - our assurance of eternal gratification and fulfillment - should be our North Star, reminding us where we are and which direction to go. 

"Spiritual Maturity" by J. Oswald Sanders

This is the part of great series, Spiritual Leadership, Spiritual Discipleship, and the third Spiritual Maturity. I have re-read the others and hope to always come back to these rich books on Leadership, Discipleship, and Maturity. A reflection from scripture for practical principles of spiritual growth for ever believer. 

A look at the each person of the Trinity; at their character and what practical applications and implications this should look like for maturing believers. The overruling providence, prostrating vision, undiscouraged perseverance, discriminating disciples, perfected strength, moral antipathy, and satisfying compensations of God. Christ's supreme vision, transcendent worthiness, unfinished work, ideal of character, and His terms of discipleship. The Spirit-Breath of God, the transforming power, purging fire, mighty dynamic, missionary passion, giftings, and empowerment of the Holy Spirit. 

Awed to repentance by the infinite holiness of the Father. Challenged to surrender by the triumphant humility of the Son. Energized to service by the transforming power of the Spirit. 


"The Great Exchange" by Jerry Bridges & Bob Bevington
My Sin for His Righteousness

What an undeserving, beautiful exchange it is, and offered to all! This is an exposition of the atonement of Jesus Christ patterned after the apostles doctrine of the atonement. 
He was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon Him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5
This book took me awhile and I'm glad I slowly went through this one. I'm a doer. The tendency of my flesh is to want to earn my way, to "do" the right things that give me value. I need the gospel daily. 

This book works through our total depravity and need for Christ's atoning work on the cross, reconciling us to the Father. He died in our place as our substitute and representative. 

After walking through what sin is, pointing to our need for Christ, the foreshadowing of Christ in the Old Testament through sacrifices and prophecies, then a walk through most of the New Testament starting with Acts and working through most of the epistles showing the position and focus in each book of His righteousness, for my sin, what an exchange. 
What is sin?...missing the mark...failure to live up to the righteous standard's of God's holy law...a rebellion against authority...sin is a rebellion against God's sovereign authority, a despising of his Word and his person, and even a defiance of God himself.  
All our efforts toward spiritual growth should flow out of the realization of what he has already done to secure for us our perfect standing before God. 
We fail to see that our anxiety, our discontentment, our ingratitude towards God, our pride and selfishness, our gossip, our unkind words to or about others, our preoccupations with the things of this life, and a whole host of other subtle sins are an expression of rebellion against God and a despising of his Word and person...the truth is that even most mature believers continue to sin in thought, word, deed, and especially in motives. 
The term reconciliation refers to a state where two alienated parties are reunited by the satisfactory removal of the cause of estrangement or offense.  


Salvation rescues us, pulls us out. Redemption is to buy us out from something and into something. Propitiation is the satisfactory price that has to be paid. Justification is to be declared right with God, free, giving us the Righteousness of Christ.  Justification depends on redemption. Redemption depends on propitiation. All an outpouring of His grace, given to us personally by faith through the work of Christ on the cross. 


By the work of Christ on the cross, we are offered salvation, rescuing us from the power of sin over us, redeeming us from sin and into new life because Christ blood is a propitiation, a satisfactory payment, our ransom to redeem us, so we could be declared right, be justified, have right standing with God, called righteous, to be sanctification, on going process of making us more like Christ during our days here until glory. 

1. This righteousness is actually an accomplished fact.
2. The twofold nature of the Redeemer as God-man was necessary in order to accomplish the transfer of the righteousness of God to sinners.
3. Though operating through aspects - his life and his death - the righteousness of God transferred by the God-man is one, indivisible, finished work of one Christ.
4. The standard of this righteousness is the law of God and divine justice.
5. The righteousness of God is substitutionary righteousness, lived out by Christ in our place and for our benefit; the death of Christ is a substitutionary death. 
6. Sinners are born spiritually dead and remain dead and incapable of any aspect of sanctification until faith unites them to Christ. 
Our eternal life is in Christ. It is from Christ as the source, through him as the means, and to him as the ultimate destination. 
Our deliverance from the law of sin and death is a unilateral act of God. This deliverance is not due to something we have done; it is due to something God has done. God is the originator and source of the atonement. He sent his son. It was his act. It emanated from him like water from a fountain.
Ransom is the purchase price, and redemption is the purchase process
1. The buyer is the God-man, Christ crucified. 
2.  The price - the ransom for our deliverance from captivity to sin's curse and dominion - is too high. We cannot pay it ourselves. 
3. The receiver of the ransom is God. 


The fact that we are ransomed means that our old ways will necessarily change. We become the property of the one who redeemed us. We have a new master - Christ. We can never be the same once our lives are touched by his precious redeeming blood...Christ offers us redemption from all these dead-end rabbit trails, false treasures, and broken cisterns that will never satisfy.

"Total Truth" by Nancy Pearcey

After all the truth and studying and refuting and supporting a biblical worldview, I love how she ends the entire book with the last section "What Next? Living It Out."  In all that you can study, know, defend, debate, at the end of the day, if your life does not match the gospel you preach, you loose all credibility and effectiveness in bringing people into the Kingdom. 

"We may do a great job of arguing that Christianity is total truth, but others will not find our message persuasive unless we give a visible demonstration of that truth in action." p. 354

"A verbal presentation of a Christian worldview message loses its power if it is not validated by the quality of our lives." p. 355

"How do we know whether we are producing life or death? By whether our lives exhibit the beauty of God's character. When people see the way you live, are they drawn closer to God or are they alienated from God? When they observe the way you treat others, do they find the gospel more credible or less credible?" p. 361

"Having a Christian worldview means being utterly convinced that biblical principles are not only true but also work better in the grit and grime of the real world." p. 370

"The church is meant to be the "plausibility structure" for the gospel. When people see a supernatural dimension of love, power, and goodness in the way Christians live and treat one another, then our message of biblical truth becomes plausible." p. 355
"The church is called to be a witness to the gospel through an authentic demonstration of love and unity." p. 378

no regrets


It's easy to look back over your days and wonder what if. When life isn't quite as you imagined or hoped it would be at this season of your life. It's easy to wonder what if past decisions could of impacted whether you're in the "right place" or not. But when is life really ever just as you planned, dreamed, imagined it would be?  

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." 
Isaiah 55:8-9 

I've never had a life plan set on a time frame, but I did imagine my life in a different place than where I'm at now. I am thankful for where I'm at, and where the steps behind me have brought me. Just as Adam and Eve would never have experienced or needed the grace of God had they not sinned in the garden, life's uncertain and changing course causes me to cling to Him who is faithful and sure. 

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland." Isaiah 43:18-19


God's sovereignty is something I can choose to rest in daily. He knows your past, present, future. He considers and weighs all circumstances and knows the "what if"s and chooses the best. 

On this side of heaven we will always have a longing for more because we are made for an eternity redeemed and glorified with our Maker and Savior.  

I don't want to look back and wonder if I missed what the Lord truly had for me; to live with no regrets of being a good steward with the life and days the Lord gave me. 

It's a desire in search of purpose and fulfillment, to be and do what you are made to do. And until you even know what that is, you will feel restless and out of place, dissatisfied with life.  The only place of fulfillment and purpose in life is knowing your Maker and walking this life through, with, in Him. To know Him and to be known. 

"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters." Colossians 3:23
Whatever...whether you are a student, an employee, a parent, a pastor, a friend, unemployed, restless in your job, single, married, whatever season you are in, wherever you are, be a good steward of where the Lord has placed you, honor Him for He is your Lord!

In general I'm not a person of great vision. I'm an implementor. Give me an idea and vision and I love to make it happen. Christ is my vision of where I'm heading. The more I'm in step with Him and walking in and a part of the things He would have for me, the more vision and clarity He gives confirming I'm right where I'm supposed to be. I still have moments questioning should I be doing something else, somewhere else? And I continue to ask the Lord that and ask Him to guide me in that and trust Him to lead that according to His specific plan for my life. And in those uncertain moments, it causes me to cling even more to Him and I'm reminded of my need for His leading, not my own. He is my Shepherd. Sheep cannot shepherd themselves, but are in need of the Great Shepherd. 

That's the beauty and struggle of walking is the Lord's revealed and unrevealed will. He gives us and lays out His desires for us as His people, but does not always lay out exactly what that is going to look like for each person. 

These things I know to be true, just a few things of His revealed will in scripture: 
  • For all to be saved (1 Tim 2:3-4; 2 Peter 3:9)
  • Be filled and controlled by the Spirit (Eph 5:17-18)
  • Bear fruit of the spirit (Galatians 5:22-23)
  • Act justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with the Lord (Micah 6:8)
  • Participate in worship, teach each other, give thinks, and serve others (Ephesians 5:17-33)
  • Flee temptation (1 Cor 6:18)
  • Be sanctified and sexually pure (1 Thes 4:3-7)
  • Submit to authority and willing humble ourselves as servants (1 Peter 2:13-15)
  • Recognize God as our highest authority and obedient to Him above man (Acts 4:18-20)
  • Not be surprised by suffering (1 Peter 4:19; 3:17) because suffering refines and builds character and perseverance (Hebrews 10:36) and allowed to be used for His good purpose (Romans 8:28)
  • It is not by works you are saved (Eph 2:8-9) and faith evidences itself in good deeds (James 2:14-25)
If I walk in the known truths of His will for my life, and the many precious promises of scripture and of the gospel, the unrevealed and unknown mysterious will come to be. 

Resist the temptation, not of just looking back, but dwelling there because you won't see what's ahead. "Your past shapes you but does not define you." You need to know where you came from to know where you are going, but no matter what the road behind looked like, the road ahead awaits you, strive forward for what's ahead.



Surround yourself with people who give you perspective, spur you on, and point you to what's ahead.

He redeems our stories, our past. No time or life is lost or wasted. Return or remain in Him and your steps will make sense of your past. He is a God of second first times, who can make old things new, and can take the broken pieces of our world and put them back together.

Your mess redeemed because your message.

"Blessed are those whose strength is in you, whose hearts are set on pilgrimage."  Psalm 84:5

A heart set on pilgrimage in this life, humbly submitted to the Lord is a life with no regrets.

sustainer


In the midst of the unknowns and uncertainties of our days, He sustains us. In those anxious days or weeks or seasons, He sustains.

I've been dwelling on that a lot lately; depending on that actually, to endure and persevere through the unknowns. Through the waiting seasons when the end looks like it's right in front of you, only to prove otherwise. I've been dwelling on these passages to do with the Lord sustaining us.

In the context of Nehemiah, the people had just gone through a time of revival from hearing the Word read by Ezra and with broken hearts, repented of their rebellious stubborn hearts and the priests offered a prayer of praise and reflection on their past that the Lord has redeemed them from and had used to draw them back to Him:

"Because of your great compassion you did not abandon them in the wilderness...You gave your good Spirit to instruct them...For forty years you sustained them in the wilderness; they lacked nothing, their clothes did not wear out nor did their feet become swollen." Nehemiah 9:19-21


Think on this. Forty years. Forty years He provided and sustained them. They never went without their needs being met. When they lost perspective of where they came from and what the Lord promised to bring them to, yes they lost perspective, trust, and hope, and complained to the Lord for their wandering years. I've lived a little over half that amount of time in the comfort of having a home, shelter, and food and never without. I don't want to complain as I sojourn my days in this life. Perspective is an inner working that externally manifest itself. That's another post for another day.

"Behold, God is my helper; the Lord is the sustainer of my soul." Psalm 54:4
"Sustain me, my God, according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed." Psalm 119:116

Do you know His promises to cling to? His Word is filled with His promises. Get to know them by being in the Word.
"Let me live that I may praise you, and may your laws sustain me." Psalm 119:175

Notice the means that the psalmist is sustained. "Your laws", the Word of God. Just as food sustains you for the day, so I hunger and need the Word as my food to sustain me through the day.

"Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken." Psalm 55:22

The sustaining comes from casting your cares on Him, giving Him the cares of your heart and life. Handing them over to Him. We are not intended to carry the weight of worry on us but to hand it over to Him to carry that load and take on his burden that is easy and light (Matt 11:28-30).

"You make your saving help my shield, and your right hand sustains me; your help has made me great." Psalm 18:35

It is His doing, His help that makes us great. In His presence we have fullness of joy!

"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4
To trust in and walk in Him now and for our days because He sustains us and renews our strength.

"The sovereign Lord has given me a well-instructed tongue, to know the word that sustains the weary. He wakens me morning by mornings, wakens my ear to listen like one being instructed." Isaiah 50:4

Those who refresh others are themselves refreshed (Proverbs 11:25). When you've experience and can walk in His ways, share that life and joy with others to help carry and sustain them (2 Cor 1:3-5). That's the beauty of the church and being in and surrounded by a community of believers who are in your life. Invest in others what has been invested in you.

"The Son is the radiance of God's glory and the exact representation of his being, sustaining all things by his powerful word." Hebrews 1:3

"I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me." Psalm 3:5

I've been trying to make this a habit when I go to sleep at night. Of all the places my mind wants to wonder and think about that could, and has, kept me up to late hours of the night, I try to make the act of giving all the concerns of my heart and mind to Him with an open hand and then to receive the gift of sleep He gives us. I mean all of us love sleep. Some nights we cannot wait to climb into that oasis we call bed and hit the pillow and let go of the weight and cares of the day to stop and rest for the night, hoping to be refreshed in the morning only to wake up many mornings thinking how you cannot wait to get back in.

Sleep is a gift and God designed our bodies with the need to stop, rest, and sleep. God demonstrated the pattern of work and rest and although He does not have a need for sleep, nor does He sleep, He desired to show us a pattern and attitude to follow by resting on that seventh day of creation. In our sleep, He sustains us. Stop and think about it. It's a vulnerable place to sleep. You check out of everything around you and trust that you can "shut down" and sleep for so many hours in the night. The Lord sustains us and gives us life in our sleep. You entrust your life to Him when you lie down to sleep and we awakes us anew in the morning.

The bookends to sleep I've been trying to keep: wake up expecting God, end your day remembering Him before you sleep. Expect to see Him in the ever day occurrences of the day. Expect Him to give you opportunities to show grace, love, to see Him if we are willing, watchful, and mindful of. Expect Him to empower you to make it through a day, the ease and the difficulties.

My sleep is a measure of my peace, rest, and trust in the Lord.

When you think you have nothing left, come to the end, or can't make it another step, He sustains. He is Lord over all our days.


For now listen to and soak in the words of this song called "You Are More" by Hillsong

"You are Lord over all my days. I will see this season through. I will fix my eyes on You. Only You."